It changed into hatred, but somehow I can still feel love

Yesterday morning

It was Sunday

In the church

I saw you when I turn back 

You weren't looking

And I said to myself

Oh, It's him 

The Eucharist ends for the day

And I made my bow for Him

I walked with my friends towards you and the other

And at that time

I saw you make your way

And you wore your white shirt

There's a string in my heart 

Starting to make a sound

I tried so hard to hide the sound

I did it

But maybe my face didn't

You were the only one I'm thinking about at that time

Suddenly felt sorry for how I treated your friend yesterday

Really sorry for didn't pay attention at what he was saying

Though it was a simple "hi"

 Yet till now I still think of you more 

When you walked into the class just now

Once again the string sings

A melody that might 

Woken up the feeling that I buried

It changed into hatred, but somehow I can feel love

Maybe it just a game of the heart

That I have to accept

For I can't seem to control my own heart anymore

Yet I will try

And I believe that I can

Dear you

Please be you

You that I know earlier

Dear Friends

Known you for only two month plus
But it feels like we've known each other for years
A lot of similarities
A lot of differences
Yet we are still together
You are there when we laugh like there's no tomorrow
You are there when I'm longing for my family
You are there when I need to cry myself out
You are there when I'm feeling scary
And you always concerns about me
And you never says no when I need help
I made mistakes and you helped me to correct them
You tells me every single things I have no idea about
You...
Your smiles always made my days
Sometimes
I think of you more than as a friend
Sometimes
You do annoys me
Sometimes
You makes me want to hug you as if you're a giant teddy bear
Sometimes
Looking at you reminds of my family
Sometimes
Looking at you makes me think 'have we met before?'

But the most important things...
You treats me the way you want
You accepts me the way I am
You made me feel at home
And you made me smile
A true smile

Sorry for any discomforts I may had caused
And I hope that we'll be friends forever

Happy Friendship Day !

For All of my TESLian Buddies!

It's not my fault

Sorry because I have to say I don't know
Sorry because I have to say I never heard of it
Sorry because I have to say I never tried it
Sorry because I have to say go on, I'll just watch
For I got used to it since my childhood
For that were the words I often say since my younger age
For I'm not not the kind of girl who were accepted within her friends
That made a girl in my own world
I have my own imagination before I go to sleep
Sometimes imagined that next day they'll come and ask me to play
Then I'll sleep with a smile
But the next day
They do not even realize that I was there
And I keep on living in my imagination
When I say I don't know
You say that I'm a city girl
Tell you what
The place I lived wasn't even a city
It's a small town
How easy for you to throw that words at me
It hurt can't you see it from my face?
Oh I forgot...
I've got too used at that kinda words
My face give no expressions anymore
My tears are now stubborn
My eyes tired of crying
It's not my fault
And I won't say it's yours or hers or them
Still
It's not my fault!

He is ours

It was dark outside

She was still talking to her friend

A long time no see friend

I was there pretending wasn't listening

Then they started talking about the family

suddenly they talked about something

At that time

I wish that I really didn't hear anything

I try a poker face

Seems like it worked

She didn't ask me anything

Maybe she thought that I understand

Yes, I understand

My feeling was indescribable

His faces since he was a toddler until he is a big boy

Filled my heart

How I really like to see him every holiday

How I like to hear about him from his sister

Always tickle our heart 

Whenever he is smiling

I tried 

I tried to forget what I heard

But I'll never forget this one

Yet, there's something that I'm sure

He is ours

I remember him since the first time my brain was able to keep memories

He, with him red lips

Running to the car

Chasing for his mummy

I was laughing

He was so cute

And now he is so handsome

He is ours 

We are the ones who loved him since he was little

We've been with him when he was growing up

We'll always be with him

He is ours

Forever

No one can ever take him from us

He is ours

To you...I'm sorry

Your eyes were red
Your voice were shaking
Your body was inconsistent
And they stand and throw words at you
Some relevant
Some do not
I was there just looking
Afraid of saying something
Remembering the days you were talking about

Sorry
That what I wanted to say
But my mouth was locked
And my hands were weak
I saw that you were angry
Yet I didn't do anything
I isolated myself from everything
For I also reached my limit
Sorry
For didn't do anything on it
Sorry
Sorry
Sorry

I'm just boring

please excuse me for the language


Today is kinda a boring or simply another day. Harap2 lepas first meeting untuk koir karang terus ada pelangi! yay! oops, bukan bermaksud saya mengharapkan hujan ya  >.<! I just hope that my day will be enlighten by that choir thingy! Yesh, nasib ada koir d sini, first time lagi ni ada, ngehehehe! Saya tau banyak ni latihan nanti, kalau kena suruh diet untuk jaga suara, matai.....babai kepada minuman yang ada ping di belakangnya. Tapi ok juga ba tu kan, kalau sanggup segalanya boleh dibuat. Setakat yang termampulah kan....

Just a few minutes ago, Miss Caroline just said, 'When you have your allowance you girls have to invest some money in make-up'....and I was like :p.....I expected that.  Ok, Ok, I will try try try try....BIG SMILE :)
Ya laa, jadi cikgu mesti kena kena nampak attractive...kan? Miss Caroline just said that  :p

This evening, planning to bersukan! Tapi mungkin saya hanya akan stay di siring gelanggang netball dan berlompat - lompat menggunakan tali untuk berskipping. Tingulah kalau saya rajin p belajar main. Macam malas pula, mau ikut archery juga, tak sabar nak tengok demo sabtu ni... jangan la ba terlampau banyak ikut aktiviti ba kan. Sukan lain boleh pelan pelan belajar ba kan, nanti nda siap pula task and assignment yang datang bagaikan hujan kucing dan anjing. <--sorry for the direct translate :p

Apa lagi mau ditaip ni, erm....ok.....

P/s to Sayrah
Tengoklah kalau ada yang ngam, confirm 40? besar juga!
haha, bukan kasut pun boleh ba kan....pandailah saya cari tu


Ok lah, cukup sdh berblog untuk hari ni. teda2 juga yang tulis. Buruk btul bahasa saya kali ini, siou no kopio. BIGSMILE!  :) 

It was Teary

Chatting with the first one

And this time it was ok

No awkwardness

Just like six years ago

Sigh

It was a sigh of relief

We finally broke the ices

That suddenly built up between us

And that seems too high and thick to be broken

But we made it...finally

And to be honest with him

Was something that I wanted for a long time

It was teary

To remember all conversations we had

To remember how the other classmates look at us

To remember how the ices formed

To remember the vanished letter

To remember how I smile with him in my mind, trying to sleep

To remember how sometimes I get exited to go to school because of him

To remember how I used to look at the basketball court every time we passed school, trying to look for him in his red t shirt

How I wish I can go back in time to fix the things that happened between us

Thanks God

For come cleaning us this very early in the morning