Wednesday, June 26, 2013

Here it is . . .

-Things has cool down so I guess I am able to write something-

          I never feel hurt. It was just awkward. You know when something you never saw coming is suddenly at your door. I admit, it happened before. And the way I acted is exactly the way I did back then. If I am correct, I lost my friendship with them. I said if because I myself is still unsure. 

          I wanted to say something but it didn't feel right. I hope I haven't lost this friendship yet because it was never easy. The fact that I've gone through this before doesn't make it easier for me to take it. It's something that I may not looking into now. Maybe not soon. Maybe not ever. Who knows. 

          I understand what you said. I ask for apology. I'm the one who should be asking for that.Though I have no right to say this, I hope this mess ends here and everything went back the way things were. My apology once again. 

Thursday, June 6, 2013

Reminiscing the good old days ...

~ had a lot of fun with her ~
we decided to write something tonight

We were laughing when we started talking about the good old days. We never get bored no matter how many times we repeat the stories. 
She told me hers, so now I'm writing about mine...
The one I think I remember the most

Afternoon. It was math class. I was in the same group with him. I don't remember what we were learning about but I remember that few seconds. 
The teacher told us to mark a few pages. Somehow I missed the pages she mentioned. So I asked him, who were sitting next to me. He could have just tell me which page to mark. Instead, 
he guided my hand. 
It happened too fast, with all the noises as a background, I blushed a little and said, thank you. Or was it something else?
I packed my things up and returned to my original place since math class was over. 
Until now, I still remember what I felt that afternoon. 
Though I actually took some times to figure that out. 

and there were other times ...

When we finally talk after the long silence.
I saw him kinda slowing down his pace. I too did the same. Probably because I didn't have to rush to the gate. 
Then, they were only us, walking together as if nothing had happened between us. 
If I still remember, we were talking something about modern ways of communication. ngehhh
Time slowed down. 
Yes, I actually felt that. 
I have never had the same feeling after that day. 
... and that was the last time we ever talked to each other. 
I mean having a real conversation. 

other times...oh sure!

The stairs...
When I almost fall from the stairs, but that was fun ^^
When I walk with her on my way back home, though we were only able to do that for a few months.
When I humiliate myself by.... oh I'll leave that alone. Too humiliating :p

I can't write all of them here, as I plan to keep some of it untold. 
Reminiscing the past is always my favourite thing to do. Often I do it alone, but it was more fun today, as I have someone to laugh with : )

Wednesday, June 5, 2013

earlier this year ...

My 2013 January was really great. I was able to feel something that I rarely let myself get carried away with. It was something related to my faith. God answered my prayer in a beautiful way. I almost didn't believe it. It took me a month to fully accept it. 
I can never forget the words I uttered so suddenly in my heart that evenings. I can never forget the feeling I felt that night. Most importantly, I can't forget the way He works. The way He made everything so perfect and beautiful. 
I kept saying thank you and thank you and I'll be saying that every time I'm remembered of those days. 

Thank you, God.