Monday, October 29, 2012

Quote I love

I don't remember where or when I did I found this quote. Maybe from a newsletter or maybe from that random search. This quote had never failed to inspire me.
 Maybe this was meant for wars or something else in the past, but I used it for the battles I had in daily life. Whenever I feel tired, as I lay my back against my chair, my eyes would catch this quote on my dashboard. Moments ago, it happened to me again and now I am full of energy.
Hope it inspired you as well.   

Monday, October 8, 2012

at the moment...

*Someone is offering foods in the class* Look a them* Not in the mood*
This might be my last entry before the coming examination. I know I'm not blogging often enough to write like this. 

So exam is finally around the corner. I try to deny it but deep inside I know that the drum is beating the wall of anticipation in my heart. Too much things happened the way it shouldn't, at least I think like that, because it's me who think of what should have happened in my eyes and in my surrounding. 

It is very hard to find my spirit back. I've lost it. I know I have to get back on track. I've tried and I'm still trying. Sometimes I see the path, sometimes I lost again. If I want to succeed, I must stay on the track. 

Maybe I should stay away from people, because that's how I studied back then. Maybe I should sleep all day and study all night, because that's my favourite way of doing my revision. I tried it here, but it's different. At home, there will be no sounds between midnight to dawn. At here, sharing room with stranger, I have to act like I don't mind. I know that there is a proper term for that, but till now I still can't accept that fact completely. There will be sound in the middle of the night, stranger communicating with her friend, yet another stranger to me. How disturbing. Disturbing! 

I know that I have to ignore this, get into myself, and care all about myself. Do the things the way I should. And that's what I am trying to do right now. 

I've been thinking about strategies, and maybe I've found some. Still it's still seem blurry to my eyes. My brain is still not accepting. And I'm sure that these cheeks will be wet, I don't know how bad but now it feels as if it's coming out anytime.

I can't help but keep wishing that things will turn out good. Keep wishing that somehow along the path someone will pull me and walk with me on the track, with it's hand guiding me. 

Monday, October 1, 2012


*Stares at nescafe 3 in 1 mild in the mug*
It's been such a long time since I had one. How am I going to deal with this? I know that I'm not really good with nescafe but I don't know what got into my mind. Going to drink this in a few minutes.

Ah, It's October. Too fast the time passes. Only yesterday I celebrated new year. So far things had been good though there are few lacking everywhere. Hopefully things will get better towards the end of this year

Right now I'm anticipating about the month of Rosary. I miss the feeling to pray the Rosary with everyone.

And I've been thinking as well, how am I going to sort of my things this year. It's almost time for that long holiday (woohoo!) I got too many things I guess. But that's just me. I like to have all my necessities with me. It's better when you have your own to use. No need to worry about the well being of something (but of course I care about the well being of the item, for the longevity of it :) It's just that you can treat the item as you wish lol. Haha I'm enjoying myself here.

*It's only a few sips but I'm looking at the mug with indescribable feeling*
I gotta buy another 3 in 1

Oh, I almost forgot about exam. It's been too long since I had one. Sigh I really hate to force myself to study. I wonder where have my spirit gone? I can't seem to focus anymore. The only thing in my mind right now is study drill. I really need that. Even though it means no life. Never mind, I'll reward myself with a lot of fun during the coming Holiday.

*too sweet, If I'm home I've modified the taste*