at the moment...

*Someone is offering foods in the class* Look a them* Not in the mood*

This might be my last entry before the coming examination. I know I'm not blogging often enough to write like this. 

So exam is finally around the corner. I try to deny it but deep inside I know that the drum is beating the wall of anticipation in my heart. Too much things happened the way it shouldn't, at least I think like that, because it's me who think of what should have happened in my eyes and in my surrounding. 

It is very hard to find my spirit back. I've lost it. I know I have to get back on track. I've tried and I'm still trying. Sometimes I see the path, sometimes I lost again. If I want to succeed, I must stay on the track. 

Maybe I should stay away from people, because that's how I studied back then. Maybe I should sleep all day and study all night, because that's my favourite way of doing my revision. I tried it here, but it's different. At home, there will be no sounds between midnight to dawn. At here, sharing room with stranger, I have to act like I don't mind. I know that there is a proper term for that, but till now I still can't accept that fact completely. There will be sound in the middle of the night, stranger communicating with her friend, yet another stranger to me. How disturbing. Disturbing! 

I know that I have to ignore this, get into myself, and care all about myself. Do the things the way I should. And that's what I am trying to do right now. 

I've been thinking about strategies, and maybe I've found some. Still it's still seem blurry to my eyes. My brain is still not accepting. And I'm sure that these cheeks will be wet, I don't know how bad but now it feels as if it's coming out anytime.

I can't help but keep wishing that things will turn out good. Keep wishing that somehow along the path someone will pull me and walk with me on the track, with it's hand guiding me. 

Strangers in my life

I've always think about strangers in my life and I only realized it a year ago

I was having my pre test for my driving licence

I was not lucky because for the first test the car slide down from the hill

But I weren't alone

A guy who seems familiar 

He must have been my schoolmate before

Maybe he was that guy who sang the lovely kids song during children's day

Anyway, we were given second chance

My turn was after him

I felt the nervousness when he did the test

And when he made it 

He parked the car, went out with a big smile

His face redden .

I proceed with the test and that time I pressed down the accelerator all I can 

To my surprise I passed the test

It was a very relieving moment

I see the guy passed the other two tests 

I did too.

I thought a lot about strangers after that day

And to be honest, I was exposed to people's behaviour only when I started my driving lessons

Which might be the main reason for all of this.

There is someone that I still call stranger though I've been talking to him online through a site 

It's fun talking to him

We agree and argue on things

I still have no idea on his real name and his real look

But I'm comfortable that way

At least for now

He cheered my boring time after I finished SPM

He is still a stranger 

Yet I like talking to him

I will never forget a stranger like him.

Sometimes the one that leaves impression was the person I only see for few seconds

Maybe the ones who smiled at me

The one who helped me when I was lost in town

The one who offered a helping hand when I carried too much things with me.

It comes too me that we leave impression in everywhere we go

Some impressions might be lovely

Some impressions might not be good at all

But they inspire me to see how people are

Without getting too attached on them

And let the thought of them ruin my feeling.

I believe that I will meet more strangers in my life

And those strangers might even stay for some times or forever in my life.

Dear strangers,

Thank you because you made my day

Even when what happen wasn't pleasing 

I still appreciate because God had decided to let me experience those events and things.