I haven't declare it as love yet

Yes, I am being too careful
After the breaks up I've seen
After the experiences I experienced
After the nights of tears that I've gone through
As I sing myself to sleep at night
I can't help myself but to remember them
The guys I thought I've fallen in love with
I just realized that it was not that kind of love
I realized that it was just a crush
A big crush
And admire
But they're still in my heart
I shall never forget who I have fallen in love with
The first one
Though we never been together, I believe that our heart did
And the crushes
They made my life sweeter
Even though they may have no idea about it
Maybe this is my strength
I've hold my words that I made that evening
It was raining and I promised myself
To never be in relationship before I finish school
Yes, I finished school on 13th December 2011
The day I finished my last SPM paper
I was teary
I've got too used to school life
The homework
The scolding
The friends
The place I've experienced my first love
I know that I am going through the same process
But this time I have experiences
Maybe they're still not enough
But I know this time I have friends who are willing to give their advises
And support me in whatever I do
Maybe this time
It's just another crush too
So I'll just wait see

RE:RE:RE:RE: THE UNSPOKEN ~ 1. This Feeling that I'm loving, Yet the after that I'm scared of

Done your homework, eh? Ha, I know you're gonna say like that! And I agree about the A.C.C.U.T.E part! I'm always annoyed by that. So geli to see, kan! huahaha, as long as they don't do the duck face.

Well, is he the one I'm crushing on? No, not him. But he I do like him playing the guitar!He played more than words, omg! Very fascinating! hee hee
He's more like a brother to me...cheh, I mean more like a younger brother.
One of the things here that I really like is, we are all interested in music!

what we use to get to St. Paul
Best!

We went to St. Paul in Balung recently. Whoa I really like the route! We pass through the oil palm factory and palm orchad! And the road was grabel...hahahaha. I really like that! ngahehehehe, I think there're only two persons who like the palm smell. hehehe...EPIC <---my friend said that.

She didn't want the ride to end

He was sitting there with her by his side
And smile when his friends start to ask about them
It didn't look like serious but when it comes to heart matter
The explanation will be so hard
Maybe he know
Maybe he don't
But how will she know
She is afraid to let the question out
Maybe she should just forget about it
Let everything happen naturally
Let the jealousy be an accessory of her heart
It might be good to have it
Because it shows that you love
But when he doesn't even know
It becomes ridiculous

Re:Re:This feeling that I'm loving, Yet the after that I'm scared of

Found is fb? Do your comparison then. Huahaha!
I'll let it happen naturally...Whose that guy's name?  The nature guy? Still stuck like glue eh? How come o! Wait, you mean the guy whose name start from the 18th letter of the basic modern Latin alphabet? 
I won't watch that mv, youtube forbidden here =.=...and because I can expect how's the video look like. eww! 



Dunno what else to say, since I don't think I want to write all of the details here...So tunggulah hari raya kio! Huahahaha! 
But I gotta tell you something, we are very one Malaysia here! And sometime I feel like we're here to learn how to teach bahasa, (so baku ba our language!) And one of most fun part here is, when it comes to literature everyone's exited about it! Go and read 'what lips my lips have kissed' by Edna St. Vincent Millay. You'll like or you'll dislike it. 

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In class and in the mood of writing blog

No lecturer...again
Means = replacements

p/s to Sayrah!
 Got cutie-pie? I know who you're talking about! >.<
Later we story story on that K. Do check out his pictures in fb and compare them to Randall.

This feeling that I'm loving, Yet the after that I'm scared of

Sometimes I hate my myself for falling in love easily
Though now I don't call it love yet
It may be develop into it
Maybe this is just a crush
But even a crush can last for a very long time
Maybe it will never fade
As I still can't forget the boys I've crushed on seriously
As long as I can remember
I've only fallen in love once
I did manage to faden my feeling towards him
But like people always say
First love is unforgettable
Always scared about the after
Regrets, Tears, Shyness and maybe Hatred
Lucky for me to didn't have the hatred
But it was painful to remember
As it comes before I sleep
Sometimes in my dreams
Sometimes when the teacher is teaching
Sometimes when I'm watching a movie
Sometimes when I'm chatting with my girlfriends
Sometimes when I'm chatting with my guyfriends
I did imagined them as the one I fell in love with
And I know it's not fair
But I didn't even realized that my heart did that
Till now I still question myself what are my feelings for what had happened
Most of my friends are happy with their special someone
I'm not wanting to be like them
But as a girl of course I want to be loved
I'm a girl who always remember what her daddy said
Maybe I'm too naive to make my own conclusion
A conclusion that say it's better for me to care for my own self
My daddy did say that I will found someone that I'll love
And that made my heart weaken
Not that I don't want to fall in love or what
It is how I'm going to be open with him about this matter
Sometimes I asked myself
Why do I have a lot of thinking to just fall in love
I answered myself sometimes
I don't want to fall in love for fun
I want to stay with the one I love forever
Now I'm going into this feeling again
The feeling I thought I'll never be able to experience again
I love this feeling
Yet I'm scared of the after
The three biggest break ups that I've seen
I don't think that I can go through it
But how do I know
I'm such a loser in relationship thingy
Pissed me off sometimes
But I learned to accept this fact
Maybe now I should learn how to overcome it
Just hope that this time I can go through it better

Hmm...

Class cancelled from some reasons. So there'll be a lot of class replacement later....bla bla bla

too much activities. Well.....

Blogging during class, quite dangerous but I take risk. Eh?