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               I took a very long break, didn't I? Well, I've posted maybe two posts but really, that was it. Still, it was great. It has been a long time since I didn't write at all. I was devastated sometimes, that I couldn't bring myself to sit and write, but I finally realized that it was no harm at all. It had been a long time since I read and only read. It had been a long time since I think and only think. I don't think that those thoughts were wasted because by only thinking, those thoughts were carefully digested and slowly the ones I truly hold on to the most become clearer to me. I was able to think without being disrupted by blank spaces that I was so eager to write on. I've always wanted to be myself and I can say that I am closer to myself. I see now that they are many things await, and they wait patiently for me to unwrap. 

             This was something that I had to go through in order to see things from the different sides of me. I must say that I am a calmer person because of this, and I love it. I'm looking forward to write more after this. The road to finding what I'm made of is still long journey but I'm glad that I have my angels and someone whom I know will always be by my side.

Gifts

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Sometimes it was too late when we finally open the gift.

We had all the time, but then we leave it in the darkest place in our locker, or maybe we chose to just ignore it even when the gift is right in front of us.

But that didn't stop the magic from happening.

While we were ignoring it, the magic spell grows stronger and its charm becomes more captivating.

That moment when you finally decide to unwrap it

Is when you finally realize what have been missing from your life.

That little piece of puzzle is now found and

For the first time you feel joy in a way you thought you’ll never be able to.

Sometimes, it is better that way.

Maybe it was meant to be that way.

So that you will appreciate your gift even more...

So that you know what you’re really into...

So that you know the worth of the Gift that will always be yours.

***

Appreciate your gift

Unwrap it 

Share it with your brothers and sisters

***

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The end of my fingers lightly brushes the pile of thoughts written in this sphere. I can feel the dust trapped in between the fingerprint lines in my hands. It has been a really really long time since the last one. 

I was busy being real. I was busy living a reality that I now love more. I miss writing here. And I still remember that one particular thing I wished to write a month ago. I will write that but I''ll have to rearrange my draft.

Now that I can at least breathe, and I got two signs that I have to write again, I'm finally here. It's still early to sum up the semester, but I can say that it has been tough. Just a little bit more and this sem will come to its end. I can't be sure though, of my feeling this year. 

I know, you know, we all know that changes are inevitable. But the transition can make it seems so hard to take. 

Well, while we still have time, we just spend every moment making memories shall we?

The happy ones, the silly ones, the crazy ones. That when we look back, we'll squeal and laugh till we cry.

*Welcoming Junior*Deepen*B.A.S.I.C*

B.A.S.I.C stands for brothers and sisters in Christ. Last Sunday we made it our official name. Praise the Lord, these multiple events ran successfully that day :)

Under His Wings

That particular day, I think I truly understand what He felt when He lifted His head after He was baptized. In the sky above, the sun rays was beautifully brought by the Holy Spirit in the form of a dove. What a joy He must have felt when His father announced that Jesus is His son.

The faith that He is truly over there, watching us. 

~

It was very late. I passed by the last person on the track. After a few meters, I decided to look up to the view at my back. How stunned I was to see what laid up in front of me. 

A pair of wings in tangerine colour, swirled by the blue of the sky was spread open up there. I stayed there for a few moments. Unable to share it with someone else as I was the only one left, I tried to remember as many details as I could. I tried to really translate what I was feeling at that moment.

God showed it to me at the end of the day, during the transition of day into night,  like a reminder that He was with me all day long. That all this time I was under the safety of His angels' wing. And I believe that as long as I live, together God, and Jesus and the Holy Spirit will take care of me. 

What I have to do is to keep believing even if I can't see Him.

I believe that when I can't see Him, that's the moment when He is really close to me.

~

Her day :)

 That evening

her soft colour contrasted beautifully with the surrounding,

 He was coming fast.

He noticed her,

and seemed suddenly realized that he needed to do something,

he went on and called her name. 

Loud and quick.

She lifted up her face a second too late

She didn't hear or see anything,
but later,
 she learned about it
and instant constant happiness finally appeared in her face.

The end of Semester 3 ^^

Hello there, 

it's been a while right. So tonight, with chocolate melting in my mouth, I decided to write something. Before I forgot to mention, I'm home!!!

I suddenly feel like summing up my third semester, so I thought why not? I started this semester, which was also the beginning of the year, with nothing too big in my mind. I just want to enjoy this year because it's the last year I'm studying as a full time student(still a full time student next year, but with the practicum teehee). The last year to think only of myself. The last year to be with the graduating seniors. And of course, with you. You know who you are :)

But then, I broke what what I said last year. I got into that campaign and then I was chosen. Though I was kinda the last choice. Haha, that's how I translated the situation at that time. I'm glad though, for some reasons. 

Then time passes faster than I imagined it would be. I still remember that night when I saw her for the first time in two months. It was like we haven't met forever! I remember the evening spent having dinner with him, hoping that time will actually freeze. I remember the weekends with them at St.Paul and how we usually have lunch together after that. And that special weekend when we extended our lunch time until late afternoon. I've only remember it right now, and I guess more are coming. Well, they always come at unexpected moment :)

Then suddenly it was a few more weeks before the semester end. I struggled to find the anticipation for it but I failed because at the same time, I was busy looking for things to do so won't think about it. Right now I can only hope that it was a good decision, since I know that even when I don't bother, a part of me will always think of it. 

For most of my batch mates, the camping was the end. But mine was three days ago after the choir. Worth it :) I'm glad that I decided to stay with the choir team :)

The end of semester 3 ^^

The Last Picture

Through the viewfinder, I see her settling on the sofa. Something about her bothered me. She wanted this and she won’t take my no. This could be her last, she said. And she wanted me to take the last one. Her condition is that bad already?

“You know what your strength is? The picture you take, perfect from the first shot,” then she rested her head.

 “There’s no need to whisper Marilyn, it’s only us here,” I didn’t know.

 Her gaze denied the truth. She was looking outside, calm, and she was smiling.

 Snap.

She didn’t turn around as always.

First Sunrise

The first sunrise I ever caught from my new room. I remember my excitement when I saw this view for the first time. It was something that made me feel better about my decision of moving into this room. 

The sunrise is clearer, I can see it from my room.

This is one of the thing that makes me feel excited about waking up in the morning.

I guess it's obvious that sunrise and sunsets are my favourites. The feelings I get from witnessing those views, I can't explain them well.

 It's the warmth, the chill, the stillness of the air around me. 

I don't know who Jo Walton is but I came across his quotes and now it is one of my favourite. 

~There's a sunrise and a sunset every single day, and they're absolutely free. Don't miss so many of them~

~Jo Walton~

Tower of thoughts

I tried to give a meaning to this picture 

and those lines are the thoughts that came into my mind

February Challenge ~ 2nd

Second challenge requires me to create a poem or a haiku. Though I love haiku so much, I'll go with poem.

 I hope it does look like a poem :)

It was like being alone

and aware of someone's presence.

Curiosity grows stronger 

as bond gets deeper.

Then time of revelation came

and the rest of it were spent to fully accept

and to truly appreciate what He had planned for me.

I'm glad that I didn't fail to see it

because the way I see it now

It was lovely

February Challenge ~ 1st

I fell asleep last night so this post stayed in the draft section last night. But I still look forward to this challenge so here it is.

So this is the third picture I found last night. According to the challenge, the third picture is suppose to be the metaphor of my love life. I had some time to think and I'm beginning to see how they can be related.

You have to dare to open your eyes, and see the world for yourself. You can only truly appreciate what you have when you already see the true value of it. In this case, your special one. And nothing in this world is solid. So when things don't appear the way you want, don't let your disappointment stay for a long time. Have faith in everything and He will decide what is the best thing for you two.

So far, that's the only thing I can think of from the picture. I'll make more reflection on it later on :)

Old room New room

I don't mean it literally, the title I mean. Though I did move into a new room after taking such a long time to decide. 

Some things are meant to stay where they are. Like visiting an old room, and there they are, your collection of dolls or pictures from the old times or simply notebooks where you've jotted down your thoughts. Sometimes you bring them with you, out of the room into your new place. Sometimes it's wise to let them stay in the room. Bringing them will only take up the space in your new room. Plus, they won't be any help to you.

You can always come back and reminisce. But don't forget that you have a new room to be filled with other things. Something new, something even more meaningful. 

The same thing goes to our lives. Sometimes it is better to only remember something or someone in your heart. No need to bring them up everyday. You have to live in the moment. So that when the moment finally become a memory, you can look back with no regret.

I've been meaning to write this since that night. That night when I was inspired to write this. Now that I finally have some time to breathe, it is written. It is kind of a reminder to myself too since I tend to stray away from my path. 

Have a good day people :)