and I found another

Closing my eyes trying to sleep,

Emptying my mind trying to forget you,

You've been on my mind all day,

Let me not think about you at night.

I don’t want to dream, because dream will end,

I don’t mind a dreamless sleep,

For I know that I’ll have the real dream with open eyes,

For I know that it won’t end unless …unless

~found this in my foundation’s notebook~

After that talk, I can’t seem to focus on anything else today. This heart is beating in a strange way. A few months ago, I might think that I’m dying. I still do sometimes. But now things had seemed to become clearer to me.

…I’ve been deleting those words. 

Oh. I've kept giving myself reasons but I guess from now on, I’ll try to depend on His timing.