Childhood Dreams ~ Blog Challenge Day 5

To tell the truth, there's not much I can think about when I started writing for this challenge. But still there's some. So here they are ...

As I got a little bit older, the library slowly became my playground. That was when I thought of the dreams I'm going to tell. 

I dream of owning my own tuition center, with a nursery service. 

I dream of owning a bookstore with a cafe in it. Just imagine you get to read with nice cup of hot chocolate!

Those are the first few things that came into my mind. 

When I reread my draft, I was like, did I not have life?

Of course like the other kids, I dream of meeting my prince charming played pretend marriage with my cousins. To stay close to my bestfriends. To visit every possible country. But those things meant nothing to me right now. I mean, I don't think of it the way I did when I was a kid. 

I guess I didn't dream big enough. Not enough to have something to remember. Well, my childhood has two sides, and I guess that one side affected me too much. I'd say that it affected me in a bad way. Oh well, it still made me who I am now. 

So far, this is the hardest challenge. I can barely think of anything right now. Wait, I think I can still write something, I when I was six, I wished that school is just a playground. 

Sigh, I hope I'll remember the bright side of my childhood. 

I can't wait to read what the other blogger has to say about this topic so write up^^ 

Inspirations ~ Blog Challenge Day 4

Inspirations...Inspirations...
Inspirations isn't something you can easily get. When I first started writing, my ideas were way worst than the way I write now. I had to hold my laugh and bear my red face whenever I read my old writing. But I sure had the idea, I wish I had wrote them nicer.

I get inspirations everywhere. Depend on the situations I'm in. Sometimes while I was crossing the road. Sometimes when I'm watching movies, having a conversation with a friend and even with strangers. Whenever I get new ideas of what to write, it always feel like I have a light bulb turned on above my head.
It always feel good.
It always feel as if I'm alive.
Alright alright I know I'm being too expressive here

Strangers actually inspires me a lot. It's beautiful how someone you never met before can suddenly mean something to you. In these few year I think I have encountered many situations with strangers. Some are good and some are ... well. They leave a pretty deep impression to me.
So if you see me going to places doing nothing but looking at other people, don't mind me. So far, my favourite place is the airport.

~I guess it's good to end this challenge with something I wrote recently

As I let the sun wipes my face, these words came into my mind~

I stayed in the dark because I was afraid of the sun.

It can be too bright that I can't even open my eyes

 to see what I'm suppose to see. 

So I stayed in the dark where I can hear sobs but can't see them

where I can hear laughter and smile along without being noticed.

Hide me ~ Blog Challenge Day 3

The fact that I like to doodle doesn't make me good at it. Just look at the picture below *face palm* sigh....

Just look at the harsh lines my my this is embarrassing 

I have no idea of what to write so I decided to write a little prayer ^^

I understand if you're laughing right now.

Why Do I Blog? ~ Blog Challenge Day 2

Well, the reason I made this blog at the first place is to kill time. I was in my SPM holiday and I was not allowed to work. But since I want this blog to resemble me, I slowly created a theme and a proper reason to write.
The unspoken? I picked that for my blog since I planned to write the things that I can't directly tell others. Yeah, of course I'm always out of topic. But I guess that's fine with me.

To make it simple ...

~I blog to express the unspoken things in me without revealing the story behind it~

20 Facts ~ Blog Challenge Day 1

Blog challenge has always sound interesting to me. So this month I'm going to go for it. Do check it out here. Maybe you'll be interested :)

When I read the first challenge, I was totally blank. I don't think that I have enough facts to tell the world. Or maybe more like there aren't enough facts that I can let them go public. But a challenge is a challenge. So I'm writing but only about the obvious thing. Well, at least to the people around me.

20 Facts about me~

 ~I’m a girl.

 ~I’m short.

 ~I’m a Christian.

 ~I’m from the Land Below The Wind

 ~The eldest among 5 sisters.

 ~Proud Dusun girl.

 ~My original hair is a mix of straight and corn like curls (I don't even know if I described them correctly).             Well, mostly straight.

 ~In the sequence of birthday among family members, my birthday is the last one.

 ~Not an animal lover.

 ~I own a blog.

 ~For me, food is the main attraction of a country.

 ~Waste money on cute notebooks that I will never use.

 ~People say that I’m a daddy’s girl.

 ~Love citrus fragrance.

 ~Addicted to orange juice.

 ~Love miscellaneous items.

 ~Love comedy.

 ~Love reading.

 ~Love writing.

 ~Have no exact favourite colour.

Here it is . . .

-Things has cool down so I guess I am able to write something-

          I never feel hurt. It was just awkward. You know when something you never saw coming is suddenly at your door. I admit, it happened before. And the way I acted is exactly the way I did back then. If I am correct, I lost my friendship with them. I said if because I myself is still unsure. 

          I wanted to say something but it didn't feel right. I hope I haven't lost this friendship yet because it was never easy. The fact that I've gone through this before doesn't make it easier for me to take it. It's something that I may not looking into now. Maybe not soon. Maybe not ever. Who knows. 

          I understand what you said. I ask for apology. I'm the one who should be asking for that.Though I have no right to say this, I hope this mess ends here and everything went back the way things were. My apology once again. 

Reminiscing the good old days ...

~ had a lot of fun with her ~

we decided to write something tonight

We were laughing when we started talking about the good old days. We never get bored no matter how many times we repeat the stories. 

She told me hers, so now I'm writing about mine...

The one I think I remember the most

Afternoon. It was math class. I was in the same group with him. I don't remember what we were learning about but I remember that few seconds. 

The teacher told us to mark a few pages. Somehow I missed the pages she mentioned. So I asked him, who were sitting next to me. He could have just tell me which page to mark. Instead, 

he guided my hand. 

It happened too fast, with all the noises as a background, I blushed a little and said, thank you. Or was it something else?

I packed my things up and returned to my original place since math class was over. 

Until now, I still remember what I felt that afternoon. 

Though I actually took some times to figure that out. 

and there were other times ...

When we finally talk after the long silence.

I saw him kinda slowing down his pace. I too did the same. Probably because I didn't have to rush to the gate. 

Then, they were only us, walking together as if nothing had happened between us. 

If I still remember, we were talking something about modern ways of communication. ngehhh

Time slowed down. 

Yes, I actually felt that. 

I have never had the same feeling after that day. 

... and that was the last time we ever talked to each other. 

I mean having a real conversation. 

other times...oh sure!

The stairs...

When I almost fall from the stairs, but that was fun ^^

When I walk with her on my way back home, though we were only able to do that for a few months.

When I humiliate myself by.... oh I'll leave that alone. Too humiliating :p

I can't write all of them here, as I plan to keep some of it untold. 

Reminiscing the past is always my favourite thing to do. Often I do it alone, but it was more fun today, as I have someone to laugh with : )