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I have never felt this interested in giveaway. I was very excited when I saw this post and I am still very interested. I will always be interested in crochet! 

I can't purchase crochet hooks all the time, I mean I won't be able able to afford them without saving some money. So maybe this is one of the alternative? ^^

I really like this blog because it's owned by a Malaysian and it's about CROCHET. I mean, I finally found this kind of blog by a Malaysian. I found this blog when I was looking for online shop in Malaysia that sells crochet hook. It is quite hard for me to look for crochet hook in my place so I have to look for it online because I'm looking for a one set crochet hook. I'm very glad to have found this blog.

not so random

I care about my feeling. Yes, I do. Who doesn't? I have tried to treat everyone the way I want them to treat me but sometimes the patience blows up. I really hate when I am treated that way. It hurt.I may not show  it but only because I am afraid I might hurt that person. I am not perfect, and sometimes I did violate my stand.
It's like my subsconcius is recording each time I am treated like that. Spreading it somewhere inside my mind that I thought I might have forgotten it. The record sometimes play by itself when I'm with that person. That person should have recognized it, and come to realization that I won't be treating you like that if you hadn't done it first. I am really really sorry for writing something like this but I've been holding this for quite some times.
I care about my feeling. I really really do. As the first among my siblings, I demand respect from everyone. I have just realized that this year. The respect that I want not to be called sister or looked by someone to ask for permissions or advice. I just want to be treated well. I believe that that person doesn't want to treated in a bad way, me too but my patience has a limit. I don't care how well or how spoiled that person is, what I know is I want to be respected. I will respect that person if that person respect me, and if that person don't respect me back I will still respect that person. But I will still demand it.
Just please, treat other person the way you want to be treated. If that person is going fine with you all this time and then suddenly there's something wrong with them, ask yourself before asking them what went wrong with them. You could be the reason!

I've stopped but I'm not sure if this the place I want to land on

Somehow I still feel like a lost butterfly

I've entered a place I've never think of getting into

This place where I often have those feelings that I hate

This place that won't let me go. 

I've known this place by name

and little bit inside from what I've been exposed by my father

But he never tell me the truth about this place

and I never care for I never thought I'll end up here.

Sometimes the other side of my heart wonder

What if I waited just a little bit longer?

I could have gone for another place

Another life, another dream.....

I do love what I'm currently doing

I love the extra activities because those are the choices that I made

But do they worth because they're not the major thing?

I'm learning something that I like but I desire to learn that one thing that I love.

Inspired blog: Stop searching for a while

I am inspired to write this blog because of someone but this goes to all of us and I hope that person get to read this too

When you are too desperate for that attentions and love

When you can't accept that you are the only one without someone to go to

When you are giving up at looking for someone you can label as special in your heart

When you finally lie down and let your eyes closed...

Think of all the things you are able to do alone

Think of the joy you had mixing up with your friends

Think of the places you are comfortable to be at

Think of the plan God is writing for you.

He is not done yet

That might be the reason you haven't found one yet

Let Him handle everything

For He will glad to.

Sometimes the reason you haven't found one yet is

 you are busy looking around and the other person is doing the same

You ended up heading to different directions 

And the chances for you to meet each other is getting thinner.

Someone needs to stop searching for a while

Let the other person find you.

I hope I'm not exaggerating with my thoughts here, this is a very honest opinion and I hope that person can take it as an advise. I hope that I've inspire other persons too.

Now take a deep breath and smile.

My passion for camera

             I was starting to give up on taking pictures because I felt like I've lost my passion in camera. Something about the feeling of not being in the picture bothered me a lot. It took me awhile to gain my missing passion. Last semester I think the pictures I took didn't reach the amount of pictures I would have took. Maybe this is a little exaggerating but it was a pain my chest when I realized that I wasn't as eager as before.
             The mid-year holiday was a great-escape from study and everything that has been blocking me from  being what I want. At home my sister was the one who used the camera a lot. I wanted to be really free at home. Last week of the holiday, I helped my sister to get her picture processed in the shop. My eyes captured the blue and green small boxes containing film in it. Suddenly I remembered my purple camera at home. I posted about it when I first got it. Click here to see it :)

            So I decided to get one of it. I purchased the the one with 36 film. I wanted the one with only 12 but since they ran out of stock I guess that one will do. The funny thing is I didn't set it up in the camera until the next day when I'm in the airport. I watched the video on how to load and unload the camera like thousand times. To think it back once will do but that's just me. When I really like what I'm doing, I'll try to make it the best. That wasn't the first time actually. I did used the camera before but it was late in the afternoon and the camera don't work well with gloomy exposure, so the picture didn't turned out to be good. That's a problem working with totally manual camera. But that also make working with it interesting. That was when I know that I'm gaining my passion again.

           Turned out that I'm not the only one in here that have that much interest in this kind of camera. I will be searching for more information on Lomography. I'll bet I can spend hours googling about it. This Saturday I'm actually going to have the film processed and I hope it will turned out well. fingercrossed! Next week our class will be having a trip and wow that is a opportunity for me to use the camera again. Not that the timing to use the camera is limited, I don't want to waste my film taking random pictures. I think it's better to use the digital camera for something random and everyday-ish that way you can delete it in case it looks ugly >.< ngehe

So these are the pictures I found in google image

This one is already mine, you know the story of it if you have read the post I've linked ;)

            You can see that one of the attraction of lomo camera is the look. But the main thing is the effect of this camera on the pictures. There are very beautiful if you already mastered the skills, which I am learning right now. I'm thinking of looking for the simplest lomo camera for now since getting the other is quite impossible, I'm just a student. Moreover, if you want a better picture it's good if you have the accessories which will require more money. I'll be getting them later, maybe in he future? Hhe, in this entry I focused on the camera only so if you want to see pictures taken by lomo camera just google it.  

I can finally say...

 I've gained my passion back

Strangers in my life

I've always think about strangers in my life and I only realized it a year ago

I was having my pre test for my driving licence

I was not lucky because for the first test the car slide down from the hill

But I weren't alone

A guy who seems familiar 

He must have been my schoolmate before

Maybe he was that guy who sang the lovely kids song during children's day

Anyway, we were given second chance

My turn was after him

I felt the nervousness when he did the test

And when he made it 

He parked the car, went out with a big smile

His face redden .

I proceed with the test and that time I pressed down the accelerator all I can 

To my surprise I passed the test

It was a very relieving moment

I see the guy passed the other two tests 

I did too.

I thought a lot about strangers after that day

And to be honest, I was exposed to people's behaviour only when I started my driving lessons

Which might be the main reason for all of this.

There is someone that I still call stranger though I've been talking to him online through a site 

It's fun talking to him

We agree and argue on things

I still have no idea on his real name and his real look

But I'm comfortable that way

At least for now

He cheered my boring time after I finished SPM

He is still a stranger 

Yet I like talking to him

I will never forget a stranger like him.

Sometimes the one that leaves impression was the person I only see for few seconds

Maybe the ones who smiled at me

The one who helped me when I was lost in town

The one who offered a helping hand when I carried too much things with me.

It comes too me that we leave impression in everywhere we go

Some impressions might be lovely

Some impressions might not be good at all

But they inspire me to see how people are

Without getting too attached on them

And let the thought of them ruin my feeling.

I believe that I will meet more strangers in my life

And those strangers might even stay for some times or forever in my life.

Dear strangers,

Thank you because you made my day

Even when what happen wasn't pleasing 

I still appreciate because God had decided to let me experience those events and things.

Hello:I Hi:) Hey :D

Hello new walls

Hello new rooms

Hello new views

Hello new faces

Hello new home 

from google image. Anyway, Happy New Home to us :)