back to classic!

O.o what was that?
 I'm using a mechanical pencil and a piece of A4 paper to write this story that suddenly came into my mind. Not really classic eh? Lack of idea caused me to be out of this writing things for a while. Honestly I miss it so much but I don't want to write an unfinished story. I want to be sure that I have the ending before I start writing.

I'm writing a short story with very few characters. Short story right why do I need a lot of characters? I've decided the name of two main characters. Hey, maybe we can film it? Oh maybe animate it? Kill me, I'm being crazy.

The story has something to do with Alzheimer. Why Alzheimer? There are more kind of diseases out there. Things like memories had been bugging me. I questioned myself, will I remember my classmates' names? Will I remember my teachers? Will I remember those moments I had with my families? Will I remember what was my dream when I was little? I don't want to forget all that. It was a part of me. A big part of my life that taught me how to be me and how to survive in this world.

Anyway, I'm going to do research for Alzheimer and combine the information I already knew to help me with this story. I think I'll post it here or I'll send it to any newspaper. Which one? O.o...ceh, perasan!

I want to post it here so wait for it okey! n_n

Childhood Favourite : Teletubbies

One of my childhood favourite.  Who can forget them? They're so cute! La La, Dipsy,  Tinky Winky and Po!
I love saying that long ago. It is no longer played on tv. Teletubbies is a part of my childhood and some of my knowledge came from teletubbies. I love teletubbies!  :)

Po: Whee! did I mentioned that she was my favourite?

One of the reasons why I love this Teletubbies!

Look how free they are! I wonder will I be able to  feel free  again?

Once Upon a Marigold

I just finished read this book. Notice my status in fb that sound like this?: Be alarmed when you're reading. I spent my afternoon reading this book and was really into it. Suddenly it rained and I didn't even notice it. The clothes are still outside! I ran outside to collect the clothes and smile naughtily. My, I never thought this would happened. That time I realized I need to keep alarmed even when the book is so exciting.

This book is from the library and my sister was the one who borrowed this. When I was searching for the images of this book, I found this...

there's a sequel....

I'm not really shocked with that, everyone can predict it from the lines of the last page of this book. So I gotta keep an eye for it.

p.s. Leo, now I know how you're feeling

Prep..

So I'm talking about the book. The title is Prep and I've used it as the title and writer is Curtis Sittenfeld.
If she's reading(I know it's impossible but I wanted to say this)
 She explained to me how I felt during schools.

The story is about this girl named Lee Fiora. She applied to this boarding school called Ault and was accepted. At first she thought she won't be going but the very next day she was offered a scholarship. So went anyway. Why wouldn't I go if I'd worked so hard for that application? She told herself, though I'm not sure whether it was the words because I couldn't remember it. But I'm sure that's what she meant.

Notice I wrote schools instead of high school? Well, this story stater when Lee Fiora attended Ault. To my understanding she began to feel all that she wrote during highschool. I felt the way she wrote in the book starting my first year in primary school. I truly believe that what Lee Fiora felt was what I'd felt. I almost relate all that feeling with my own.

She wrote about friends.

Have you ever thought that that person you never talked to though you knew her name will be your bestfriend? that question came to me after I read about this.

 Lee Fiora thought that she will never have a bestfriend there; because it was almost one year and she was still not close to everyone. Even her roommate. She became close to this one girl before, and after a while she found that the girl was the one who caused the mess in their dorm. She was the thief who steal from her roommate, Dede. She can see that though Dede came from a rich family like almost everyone at Ault, she's still concern about the theft. After Lee Fiora caught to the girl while she was going out of her room, she reported it to their dorm head. The girl was expelled after that. Then she felt like no one again.


Then she became close to Conchita, a spanish girl. After a while they became a little close. Lee Fiora even taught her how to ride a bike. Through Conchita she began to talk to Martha, a classmate she never talked to (Lee never talked to Conchita before too, and most of her classmates) That moments she realized that she was wrong about Martha, she could be friends with her. They then decide to room together for the coming year. Conchita was upset. She suggested that the three of them will room together but Lee and Martha thought of another thing. It was kind of the end of Lee's and Conchita's friendship because after that Sittenfeld never write anything about them anymore. Martha became her bestfriend and roommate until the finished their study at Ault.

***

There are a lot of things but friendship part was the part that really touched me as it was my problem as soon as I started school. All the things you can't agree with everyone else, all your thoughts about them, all the things you thought necessary to be anybody's friend...etc. 

***

The love life expressed by Sittenfeld also captured my emotion. How you suddenly have a crush to this someone and never talked about it but to your best friend. You know that that person will never love you back yet you still keep the feeling. You even have another name for him. The one you use as an alternative to his name when talking about him in public witch your best friend. I remembered how it happened to me after I read that Lee Fiora did that. There were more, I just can't express it through words...

***

My favourite line was, 

how refusal become a part of me...( I don't remember the exact line but this sound somehow like it)

It touched me. I stopped for a while and did a flashback. Yeah, I've been refusing a lot and live in my own world. Though it was with anyone else, it still my own. I remember how I took a long time to break the ice. Though I talked to her, sometimes we laugh together and more...I still had the uneasy feelings towards her. To my surprise, it was easy to be her friends. As long as I open my heart, I can accept her. It didn't happened a lot though, I mean the hard to break the ice part. And when my friends have an outing together, I often said to myself no. Though I know that I can actually go for it if I do that one things I never really try to do.

I seriously love this book! It's like reading my life. When I finished this book I felt a huge load in my chest. My breath was taken by the Sittenfeld. It's like, I learning who I am and who I was. Seriously, that book is amazing and words can't describe how I feel. Even my sister said I was so addicted to that book. I don't really know what else to say. Go read it by yourself, you'll find more of the Lee Fiora's life that I didn't mention here. 

I'm in love with this book forever

today is day I finished reading the book...

yep, I finished the book today. Around 4.22 p.m I guess. But I still won't make this blog specific about it. I'll reread the novel. Well, only cursorily. 

I'm so tired but I really want to blog.

Up and had first driving lesson today. Then went with my mum to workshop to send my farther's car keys. After that went to have breakfast, I was starving!~We went to this restaurant and chose to the table next to family of three. They have little girl with them and she was on the baby chair. Suddenly she turned back and smiled at us. I was like(aww, cute!) Her mom said, terlampau mesra. Yes she was. When her mom let her off the the baby chair she laughed and ran toward me! We all smiled. She didn't get to me though, the bay chair was between us~ After that, we went to relitop, then to hp furniture. I went to Perniagaan Lee where bought a few stuff while waiting for my mum from the bank and I ran into Ratnah. She works there and I knew it so it wasn't a coincidence. 

Oh, while I was waiting my mum to pick me after the lesson, I saw this guy passed by and he turned back for a second. I recognize him immediately though he dyed his hair(it suited him perfectly. at least I think like that). It took him maybe 2 to 3 second to recognize me and turned back. He walked towards me and we greeted each other.Then there were a short conversation. He asked the usual questions people would ask when you ran into them after long time no see. After that he walked away and I kept waiting for my mum. Well, I must say that he's kind of...oh never mind( I want to write it here but it it suited more in my manual diary..and because you know him) Oh well, that guy from the class next to mine... he did made me smile upon trying to know him last year. And today too... 

weirdness & ...

Well, maybe you've saw this in facebook. I omehow feel weird that blogging make me feel better. But then I thought, thinking that I'm weird is weirder. Or maybe, I'm just not the ordinary one yet still not the unique one.

I don't have a lot to type here and that explain why I hadn't blog for a while.

I'm just stuck with this book. It has 469 pages. So far I've read 386 pages and in the final chapter. This book is just so real. It's like Curtis Sittenfeld explain how your school life was.

I'm getting ready for tomorrow and for my coming interview. I better do my best with this one. Maybe I'll go enjoy a mug of milo and read this book to the end tonight. So I guess you guys know what my coming blog will be about. I'm pretty sure that I'll write a lot because there are a lot of emotions and thinkings about this book that I need to share.

What with the picture above? Oh, just sharing. I want my hair to as long as Rapuzel's but I know it's pretty hard. People always make new hairstyles, invent new straightener or curling wand and bla bla bla...and you always get excited. Not that you change your hairstyles right away but you do exited about it. Oh well, I'm still gonna try to grow my hair as long as possible as it had been a want for me and and now it is also a need.

everything?...lol

20 April was one of the best day.Though it was ruined by a few little things.
1st, I need to hand in my certificate to the teacher, my amount of As was wrong...
2st, camera didn't work as I wish. All picture ruined. never mind...as long as I'll get my picture on the stage.
3st, I didn't make it to ESL booth. Well, I did but after the stall was closed. I did met teacher and that's more important to me.

It was so good to meet them again. I sat beside Rinah and I took the opportunity to talk a lot. Usually I'm the one who have the story to tell. hoho, if Safuan was there I'm sure I'm the one who'll be listening to their word war. I still remember their war before spm. It began with Rinah studying about nuclear and Safuan was interrupting her...then, they begin to tell each other their plan to kill each other one day! I was...=.=...then...=.='...their war was really, emm...see I can't explain it. Can you imagine what I  suffered?

Rahman, he is very damn tall now! Taller than before. I have to lift up my head to look at his face. Milton, owh...getting more stylish! Ijan, very long hair and very slim lol!Leo, met her the day before but I must say that her baju kurung was cute! Fre, very nice hair. Ruz, don't really know what to say but I really missed her! Lala, never though she really meant what she said about not going to join us. But it was great to meet her again. Anyone I forgot to mention? sorry...

I got some money and a beautiful mug. I doubt that I will ever use it for coffee or milo since it has a small ear, I meant the handle. I afraid that it might not be able to withstand the heat and the weight and also I love it so much. Maybe it will end up staying in my cupboard with my spongebob glass.