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In class and in the mood of writing blog

No lecturer...again
Means = replacements

p/s to Sayrah!
 Got cutie-pie? I know who you're talking about! >.<
Later we story story on that K. Do check out his pictures in fb and compare them to Randall.

This feeling that I'm loving, Yet the after that I'm scared of

Sometimes I hate my myself for falling in love easily
Though now I don't call it love yet
It may be develop into it
Maybe this is just a crush
But even a crush can last for a very long time
Maybe it will never fade
As I still can't forget the boys I've crushed on seriously
As long as I can remember
I've only fallen in love once
I did manage to faden my feeling towards him
But like people always say
First love is unforgettable
Always scared about the after
Regrets, Tears, Shyness and maybe Hatred
Lucky for me to didn't have the hatred
But it was painful to remember
As it comes before I sleep
Sometimes in my dreams
Sometimes when the teacher is teaching
Sometimes when I'm watching a movie
Sometimes when I'm chatting with my girlfriends
Sometimes when I'm chatting with my guyfriends
I did imagined them as the one I fell in love with
And I know it's not fair
But I didn't even realized that my heart did that
Till now I still question myself what are my feelings for what had happened
Most of my friends are happy with their special someone
I'm not wanting to be like them
But as a girl of course I want to be loved
I'm a girl who always remember what her daddy said
Maybe I'm too naive to make my own conclusion
A conclusion that say it's better for me to care for my own self
My daddy did say that I will found someone that I'll love
And that made my heart weaken
Not that I don't want to fall in love or what
It is how I'm going to be open with him about this matter
Sometimes I asked myself
Why do I have a lot of thinking to just fall in love
I answered myself sometimes
I don't want to fall in love for fun
I want to stay with the one I love forever
Now I'm going into this feeling again
The feeling I thought I'll never be able to experience again
I love this feeling
Yet I'm scared of the after
The three biggest break ups that I've seen
I don't think that I can go through it
But how do I know
I'm such a loser in relationship thingy
Pissed me off sometimes
But I learned to accept this fact
Maybe now I should learn how to overcome it
Just hope that this time I can go through it better

Hmm...

Class cancelled from some reasons. So there'll be a lot of class replacement later....bla bla bla

too much activities. Well.....

Blogging during class, quite dangerous but I take risk. Eh?

Hello new life!

Yep, I'm currently at IPG Kampus Tawau!

Wow, it feels like dream. Still feel like dream.
A dream that I don't know how to stop
A dream that I don't know what my feelings for it yet.
So far I know there are exited, happy, for some reasons sad

ceh, berpoem pula! hee~

MPPB was very fun, it was tiring, but also very fun.
I miss MPPB! The day it over, I was like, It's over?
Oh my, how fast time flies.
I was in Group 4! There were 10 of us. 8 girls and 2 boys.
What? You don't believe it? It's real honey.
There are 50 of us, the new TESLian at IPG Kampus Tawau.
Only 10 of us are boys, ( or should I say men?) and 40 girls(or women?)

Group 4!
Azri@shnchan,Alex@penghulu, Mandy(me),Umi, Je wednesday,  lupa
Dini, Paya,Andrea, Beatrice

I was an amazing experience! I still can't forget the tepuk tepuk..hoho
and how Our group became the winer of the MPPB, I was like....we won? How?
Maybe it was the choral speaking and choir we presented. Aww I like that!
The kipas kipas and everything. How everything turns out well, (not perfect :p)
I hope that I'll be able to get the pictures from seniors! hehe

Taking a break

dengar? dengarka tidak? bunyi gelas pecah! heran? kan taking a "break"...hwuahahha! sah gila sudah lepas berdating dengan hospital dan borang-borang itu! 

whua! seperti title entry ini, I'm taking a break baby! Nanti saya break betul betul pula! fuu...

I am very very tired. 

Oh my! Red Roses!

How easy life can be taken...

She asked me do I know him
I said no but I think I do
She search for his facebook and we saw his pictures
I was like "oh, him. I always see him at church"
Then she told me he had an accident
I thought that only an accident
In my mind, my imagination maybe
he's in the hospital being treated
but then I was post
may his soul rest peace
I ran to her and asked, he's death?
She looked at me and said yes
In my heart, I feel something different
I only know him as someone I used to pass by at church
but i....I don't what else should I say
I write here, because I can't seem to let it out by speaking or crying

May his soul rest in peace, May he got his place in heaven...
Amen...
condolences to his family and friends...